I've finally figured out how come it's so hard to get an A for BC.

 

For starters, even though I learnt most of my subjects in BC during my primary school years, I haven't been consistently using mandarin for 3 years straight. My definition of "consistent" is to write, speak and express daily. Speak, okay, I have to speak to my friends in mandarin, but for goodness sakes, how "baku" can that kind of mandarin get? Write? Strike that out. I do NOT have any reason to write in mandarin, because obviously, talking will do with my friends. Accounts for all the writing mistakes I make...yeap, not spelling mistakes, because it's clear we don't spell in mandarin. One little smudge or one little dot and a word can take on another meaning that is altogether different from what you meant to write in the first place.

 

Another reason is that 3 periods of a language subject as hard as chinese IN A WEEK is obviously NOT ENOUGH!

Compare this amount of time to the amount of time allotted for BI and BM.

 

Check this out : 5 periods of BI in one week, adding 5 periods of Science taught IN BI...adding 5 periods of Maths also taught IN BI.. and you get 15 periods of training in the international language. Not to mention I converse in English with my family members and dog daily.

 

BM : 5 periods of BM in one week, adding all the rest of the subjects that haven't been mentioned yet. You get the idea. Plus, 80% of the briefings given in the morning to Arangnites are done in BM. I don't even have to mention the fact that 90% of the notices put up on the notice board and announcements are done in BM.

 

Okay and what about mandarin? 3 periods per week, 2 are put together and we usually use BOTH periods to write ONE essay. No wonder we can actually fail our mother tongue. Btw, it's not MY mother tongue, because the definition of "mother tongue" in the dictionary is the first language that we learnt to communicate in. That, for me, would be English.

But considering I'm not too stupid and reasonably sensible, I would NOT want to let my BC teacher hear me say anything like that. There's something about BC teachers that make them so touchy about this fact.

 

It really doesn't help that one of my St Jo friends rubbed in the fact that a Malay friend of his who attended SJK(C) sat for BC in the PMR and scored an A. Did he HAVE to? And added that "shame on me" if I didn't score an A for BC since I was a Chinese myself. To that friend of mine, you won't know what you are talking about until you actually try it. Eh, you're a Chinese yourself wad..lol.

 

Well, if I do get a B for BC, there is ONE more likely reason, and that is because I am wasting my time here ranting and venting my feelings. So bye for now and P/s : Pray for me next Thursday when I sit for my BC exam. Hehe.

I really really really canNOT understand guys. As I grow up, this fact becomes more and more apparent.

 

Well, in case you were wondering, what I was wondering about has something to do with the fact guys never plan or even THINK beforehand before proposing to a girl. Nah, not that far yet, we'll start with the basic "YOu wanna be my gf" stuff.

 

The other day I was glancing through The Great Commission, and in this particular edition, it featured love storys. Whenever the guy part of a partnership said his piece, it seemed like ah well, if it feels right, just do it. Not exact words lah, but general meaning. You get the idea.

 

This isn't the first time I have heard statements like that. Once, I sort of carried out a survey among some friends( I do these stuff all the time)..and the girls generally know what they want in a man, but the guys..wow, getting ONE pieca criteria outta them is as hard as getting a lemon to turn into an orange. I don't even know where I got that illustration from, it just popped into my mind.

 

What about real life examples? Take X, a friend of mine...(I'm sure you know who you are). X happens to be a guy who has an overload of emotions, more than his share, I believe. He has been through a LOAD of romantic emotions, notions and all the "tions" you can think of that have anything to do with teenage hormones. *snicker*

He told many girls that he liked them before. And before the week was out, changed his choice. Of course, I'm not saying he was accepted la..but well, just imagine, a guy flitting from one girl to another in a matter of DAYS?

After so many incidences where his emotions changed in a short span of time, it does make one wonder does he ever learn from his mistakes?     He even told me once : I just follow my heart and do whatever it tells me to.

 

Obviously his heart isn't very reliable, huh? It does seem that he doesn't think as much as he feels.

Note to reader: X has improved since June. Loyal to only one now.

 

I wanted to give you guys another example, but I didn't wanna embarrass myself.

 

Okay here's another. Another friend of mine...we'll call him Y. I thought okay, at least THIS guy has criteria and knows what he wants in a girl.

 

Guess what happened. A few weeks later I found out he already had a secret crush and that person was NOTHING like what he said previously. Either love is blind, or he was blind. Well, I think you know who you are too. Lol.

 

Don't guys ever THINK before they decide on the next move? I'm not encouraging guys to make moves, but um, since they WILL anyway, so why not take all the circumstances, probable conditions and stuff like that into consideration FIRST? 

 

SOme people may argue that in that case, nobody'd get a gf or a bf, because um, guys have to make the first move right? One suggestion, be the girl's best friend FIRST? THen only decide if that girl is suitable, compatible and a keeper. THEn you only go ask her to be your gf if you are really sure you can at least tahan for a few months.

This poem is dedicated to one of my friends.

 

 

I never knew how you felt,

Until I started to feel too.

I know you knew I won't understand,

because I wasn't you.

 

But now I feel, now I realize,

The sort of stuff you feel.

A fraction of it only, but still

I hurt to feel what you feel.

 

It hurts me to know you aren't whole, 

Somewhere, there's an empty hole.

I can't fill it, only Jesus can,

Call to Him, call upon His name.

 

But I am trying to be a friend,

please stop building walls.

I'll never truly comprehend,

never understand your pain,

But don't turn me away,

I am learning to care.

 

You aren't alone in the world,

We care for you.

Even if we'll never feel as much,

Or care just like you want us to.

 

 

You don't need judgment,

You need friends.

Just remember, we'll be there..

We love you and we care,

Through the pain, through the cold,

Don't let go.

                              May

 

 

 

Hey guys, I just took a 50-question personality test on Tickle, and it's pretty much accurate, I must say. Here's my results, so read at your own discretion. Hehe.

 

Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types - your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type. You are a Poet which means you are a Thinker / Golden Your primary sub-type is defined by "Thinker" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Golden" characteristics.

That means you're complex and artistic with a rich inner life. Chances are you're a bit shy and quiet, and you enjoy peaceful, comfortable environments. You're an interesting person to know, full of insights and inspiration, even though you're sometimes hesitant to express them.

How do we know all this? How do we know that you enjoy intense one-on-ones or small, intimate dinner parties? Or that you might not make friends all that easily, but that you relish the ones you have? How could we have divined that you don't like to juggle too much at work and can get stressed out by major job upheavals?

Because while you were taking the test, you answered four different types of questions — questions that measured confidence, apprehension, willingness to take risks, and your focus on experience versus appearance — the primary traits that determine your personality. Based on your responses, we determined your personality type, Poet.

And that's just scratching the surface.

 

Only one little objection : I am not artistic. =)