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3月25日 Don't say I didn't try to help. =PThere are times I wonder why God made guys and girls so different. It can be very FERUSTRAIGHTING, and I'm sure I'm not the only person who feels this way. xD Below is an excerpt from a conversation I had with an agitated Eddie last night.
(After a lengthy explanation on why girls say the things they say...)
Eddie : Why don't I get girlfriends like you?!
May : Don't think I'm so understanding.
Eddie : You should preach to all the girls out there. So that the world can be a better place for poor guys like me.
Eddie : Maybe I should really "set apart girls" and try guys. I mean, since we know ourselves and stuff.
Oh well. I'm actually inclined to agree with him. HAHA kidding kidding. But wouldn't that be easier, really? After all, girls definitely know how to please girls...guys definitely know how to ple-*trails off into an unintelligible mumble*
Anyway, as with all problems, the universal solution is...THE INTERNET! Yours truly actually googled up some stuff on what girls want guys to know. If you're a guy and you're at this very moment grumbling about the gender bias, then you're very welcome to google up what GUYS want girls to know and post it on your blog. We could all use the help, gracias mi amigo.
Anyway, links are here, here and here. To the guys out there, do not generalise. Not every girl thinks a real man should be driving a manual car. For instance, I don't care what gear the car has as long as the driver is the right person (and he brings me back in one piece to my parents). xD We're all unique beings with our own unique preferences, so when in doubt, ask (your girlfriend/significant other lah, duh, not ME). But I can safely say that MOST of what is said in those articles are quite true. =)
Hope this helps all the poor, suffering males out there. Hehe. One last piece of advice to the guys : Don't try to understand us, you never will. =P But do your best to be accommodating, and the effort will count for something.
Okay, this will be rather unfair if it's only one-sided. So, to the GIRLS out there, do try to give your boyfriend a break every once in a while lah. Compromise is the key.
...And to dearest May, please practise what you preach. xD 3月23日 Friendster testimonials, of all things. xDI ran through my Friendster testimonials on a random impulse (yes, I do get those, I CAN be spontaneous sometimes), and I realized how much testimonials could say about a person. Real testimonials, not 'comment-evolved testimonials'. I pity the younger generation - they will never receive a decent testimonial from their friends ever again. Anyway, I decided to select some of the more note-worthy testimonials to be posted up here. The testimonials aren't arranged in chronological order. More like backwards chronological with some shuffling in between. =P Some people wrote me more than one, but because of the lack of space (or rather, the definitely-will-wane interest of the readers), I didn't put all in. Bear in mind that these are some of the things people said about me from up to 5 years ago, and OBVIOUSLY I've changed (as have the writers themselves), so don't take what they say wholesale. Especially the bad parts *cough cough cough*. xD Okay fine, take the good, bad and ugly together.
Charmaine :
May, here's your testi. It's gonna be very long. Well, that's because you're too interesting a species and I've got a LOT to say bout you. =P
Like I mentioned to you the other day, I'd heard all about you even years before I finally transfered to SMKJA. Guess from who? XD XD The legendary May Yap, top student of SMKJA, etc etc. The girl who seems to despise long hair, saying that short hair is much more economic. XD Dude, mine is short, but it isn't economic at all. In fact, it's almost unaffordable. Well-known for her sarcasm and her unbelievable speed when she talks, Ms Yap here is a good person to talk to (always full of topics and jokes) and to argue with. She seems to be very popular; everyone knows her. Very friendly too, and she's always smiling. Her laugh is contagious, beware of it. Indeed, a girl of integrity, eloquence and dignity; you're like, totally my personality idol. XD She's such a big fan of God, it's scary.You should write a book, you english is too good! Eddie :
So this is the New-Year-New-Testimonial thing huh. XD
Well, I supposed that May-06 and May-07 (May: A person's name, not the fifth month) doesnt change much. Or, perhaps, a little more sarcastic. What can I say, she's just living up to her Sarcasmweaver title. Haha. Like what she said, she's my dreaded see-through-me, counselor, rationalizer and archenemy. Pant pant. But then I think all these stand for only 10%, while most of the time, she's just plainly a good friend of mine. This fun-loving, mind-reading (at least this applies to me), ever time-lacking girl happens to be my friend for 3 years now (or that was what she said haha). It's been 'enjoyable' to have her around, get advice from her, be poured with tons of cold water but occassional some encouragement, and see her grow from a urm... skeptical girl to her wayy more skeptical one. XD Don't study too much, because crazy you will become. Just to quote the Jedi Master Yoda, do, or do not. There is no 'try.' Happy New Year! Kong Min :
HAHA!!! MAY! Finally a testimonial from me! So u can stop complaining now :P. Well, i've knwn this gal for 1 year now, and it's hard 2 believe the changes that she has brought to my life. Wat a 'ripple maker'(keep in mind it's self-appointed)! A rather serious girl, with her own sense of humor, she can get pretty nasty if u get on her nerves. Oh and thx for the Xmas gift...even though i havent tried it. Okiez i'm off. Laters.
Esther Ling!!
good ol may....this is one of my real good frens, if not one of the best. man, she is truly a great character to be around with. she talks, like a lot of girls do..but the thing different about her is that she talks sense and logically. she makes one think sometimes. great at askin questions too...on the spot..i was thinkin she'll make a great reporter one day. come to that, i think she'll be great at anything she chooses to do, once she's set her heart on it. well, that's all the words from me..i'll leave the blanks to speak themselves.....
Maclean :
Thinkers are odd people. They don't really fit in with the norm. But when thinkers meet they often remain friends forever. Cause the world is a lonely place and thinkers few.
So I am glad I found a fellow thinker and a friend.
Left brain thinker? Just go out there and find a right brain thinker and the two of you will make a handsome pair. Jia Wern :
Some people say that there is no place for a Creator in this universe that has supposedly no beginning nor end in its curvature of space-time. Others say that based on the uncertainty principle of quantum physics and the theory that "God does not play dice with men", God therefore cannot exist.
But I say otherwise. I say that God is like a singularity- no law of science can bind his infinite power and love, and when I look at people like May, I know that I am correct. Because only God could create someone as quirky, ambivalent, brilliant, caring and beautiful as her. =) Only God could fill such a person with so much love that it overflows and affects surrounding matter. As for her being unemotional and uncaring as a left-brain-dominant individual, I say that that is as true as the theory that time is absolute. And thus i say that May should be respected (along with the rest of mankind) as one of the greatest creations of the Master of the Universe.
God Bless. -jw3rn- Sonia :
Hmm, I'm not good in writing testimonials, but I'll be as kind as possible to retain your 5-star reputation. ^__~ [okie, I was just kiddin about that part] To me, May is a really hyper girl...memang hyper ! ^o^ She talks talks talks talks talks talks my boredom away. Yea, she has a really good sense of humour...and currently I cannot find anyone who can speak as fast as she does. ^ ^; She's a very good friend lar...may God bless her...and she has a really cute dog!!! [ how I feel like squashing Lara = P ] Honestly, the first time I met her, I found her rather quiet..but of course, once you get to know somebody, his/her true colours start showing...yea, and her colour is orange, for the 'shiok'-ness of things. ^__~ Last but not least, she's a friend anybody would like to have...she can be quite sot at times [ in a good way ], but I don't mind, since that's how I am too. = P [ oh yea, and she talks like an Indian cow = P ] God Bless and Best Wishes ~ Signed, The Mashter. Phoebe Balan : Anda diberi warning bahawa causing bird flu is an offence...Yang memerintah, DYMM... Joshua Baru : the chicken with long-shot,crazy,near-to-impossible dreams.wanting to fly!!!good luck with that! Ariel : this girl..CHANGED A LOT!! Amy : hi may.. warn u guys 1st ah.. she like to bug and pester pester pesteR ppl till they write testi for her arh.. hahaz... Zhuo Wei : May.......May......May.......May....... Hey what can i say? ur beautiful, sweet, kind, friendly, sister of a very good fren of mine, daughter of a very good fren of my dad....bla...bla...bla.... boring....... well not really....ok never boring...owez full of laughter etc etc etc i'm 2 lazy 2 spell out the rest. pretty pretty good fren of mine... sheesh i'm like writing out my own testi on ur turf.hehe...so about u.....ummm......ummmmm.....well.....u speaks excellent chinese... went to a 1 nite camp and got rained on.... what else.....cute.... pretty....beautiful....wait i said that already... hehe well there isn't really much 2 say coz most things about u r unable to be put into words that is located in my vocabulary....in short ur a nice person 2 be with...ummm a twat??? no definately not a twat. [Author's note : This post is so self-absorbed. Oh well. =P At least you readers will know me better then.] 3月21日 Fashion Woes.I'm feeling in a very intellectual, indignant mood today, lucky for you readers. =P Else you all wouldn't have a post for yet a few more aeons. xD
...As if anyone still visits my very dead blog. Please lar May, so perasan one you. *slaps self*
But I digress.
The focus of my indignance today will be...*drumroll* my sense of fashion. Or as many would prefer to note, my LACK thereof. No, I'm not frustrated about my lack of fashion sense - I just wish people would STOP telling me what to wear in order to look more attractive. And you have no idea how many people have made well-meaning suggestions. *sigh*
The thing is, what looks good on most girls might not look good on me. I cannot, for the life of me, imagine myself in tight leggings and micro skirts. I can't even bear the thought of myself in makeup. No, I don't wear earrings. I hardly accessorize myself, except to go to church. Even then, I decorate myself with the barest essentials - like a watch (which I wear practically everyday) and a necklace. The outfits I wear to church are what I'd call "Sunday Best", not exactly "Shopping Best". I have my own unique taste. "Unique" based on the norm nowadays. Teenage girls tend to wear really bright colours, really short shorts, really tight skirts and really hip combinations (although somewhat mismatched sometimes, in my humble opinion). I, on the other hand, wear smart casual blouses, skirts and go for the more classy, borderline adult-ish styles. And that's only to church, or to formal functions. Other than that, my daily outfit comprises shorts and any decent tee I can find.
*takes a deep breath*
I know my sense of fashion is more conservative. But I don't have lousy taste concerning what looks good on me. I'm not oblivious to nice cuts, nice colours and I have my own preferences. Just because I don't wear what most teenagers wear doesn't mean I need advice and help on how to dress better. Being uncomfortable with flaunting my flesh for public gawking doesn't mean I'm not confident. Just because I don't bother to paint my face, that doesn't mean I don't groom myself. I don't bother to dress up when I go out sometimes because if I'm not attending a formal function, why bother to overdress? Between being overdressed and underdressed, the greater fashion faux pas is the former, I believe. Generally, people view my dressing style as boring. I tend to brush off comments with "Do you think I care?" while mentally shooting back "As if your taste is all that great." Why can't others understand that what works for them might not work for me? Skinny jeans with markings like a tiger just clawed it? When you catch me in one of those, that'd be the day I marry Brad Pitt. I'm not saying that they definitely won't look good on anyone else. I'm speaking for myself, and myself only. I do compliment others when they look fabulous in something I wouldn't wear because it just isn't my style. I know that a certain piece of clothing might work for, say, Nisha, but not for me.
(No, I'm not attracted to Brad Pitt. He's just an actor. Stop hypothesizing about any possible fangirl crush I might have on him.)
My views on what is pretty and what is not will evolve. To illustrate my point, I'm starting to wear my hair long, and I think it might be a good idea after all. But for now, I'm not in the least bit interested in wearing contacts, piercing my ears/nose/navel and putting on makeup. Or wearing 4-inch stilleto heels (because they are PAINFUL) in colours so bright that the first thing people look at will be your feet. I will not budge on my opinion of how short shorts should be. I don't impose my views on others, so why can't they accept me as I am, supposedly flawed fashion sense and all?
Eddie used to be one of those who urged me to wear my hair long. Recently, when I told him that I wanted to wear my hair long, he went , "Awww no, I can't imagine you with long hair. Keep it short." The irony. Pfft.
...Although his reponse MIGHT be due to the fact that someone wears her hair short too. =P 3月12日 The Hype That Is SPM Results.SPM results came out today. No, I didn't get straight A1s like people expected me to; no, I didn't even get straight As. And no, I don't feel distressed about it either. =P
I got one B3 for, of all things, EST. The subject I considered a non-subject, yet viewed as highly unpredictable and ambiguous. Can't say I wasn't prepared. =P I heard that after she found out about my results, Pn Ng forbade Charmaine to take EST. Hehehehehe. Okay, I know it's unexpected for me, highly kiasu May, to be happy about a B3, but I'm being honest here. I AM happy about my results. Of course I feel that EST should have been a clincher, but I don't feel annoyed or depressed about it (save for a pang of envy because friends who get straight As will be eligible for Yayasan's RM 500 premium AND Maybank's Rm 300, but no worries I can try extorting money from my dad since I saved him tuition fees ALL THOSE YEARS). Like I said to a few people the night before results came out : I'm going to form 6. The only reason to get straight A1s now would be to show off. Hmm. Maybe God didn't want me to. xD
That said, allow me my 3 seconds of fame okay?
LOL WOOHOO I GOT 10A1s FOR THE IMPORTANT SUBJECTS PRAISE THE LORD! Before you start muttering about the B3 in EST, consider HOW MANY THINGS COULD HAVE GONE WRONG. PM. BM. BIO. I GOT A1s for ADD MATHS AND BM FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE TWO YEARS OF UPPER FORM. You tell me how to sulk when I got more than I deserved (in my opinion). =D If you want to talk about injustice, well, my results are injustices personified. Only they're injustices in my favour HAHAHAHAHA! God is SO good.
Of course there'd be people who would go, "You don't give yourself enough credit (PUN!), May," but I personally believe that without God's grace, I wouldn't have 10A1s in my hands. I could've pmsed during SPM (oh, the sheer horror). I could've gotten sick, even. But I didn't. In fact, if anyone knew what I was up to in June, July and August...never mind. I could've gotten a fussy examiner who didn't like the look of my handwriting. Or one who didn't agree with my criteria for the perfect future husband. Uh huh, I chose that topic for the English essay, you may groan and roll your eyes now. =P I'm overwhelmed by the magnitude of God's grace - first the driving test, now this. Don't get me wrong, I did do my best, but I also left the rest to God. Mr Wong's (Chem teacher) advice truly worked.
And I'm sorry for all the long sentences with nary a coma, that's how I speak when I'm excited. =P
At the end of the day, after all the hype has died down, you see me sitting at the main door, eating fish keropok, talking to my dog and sharing the fish keropok with her with a contented smile on my face. And while I'm not chatting with her, I'm looking up at the grey sky (it's going to rain, okay?), silently offering a prayer of thanksgiving unto the God who has my life in His hands. Thank You. Thank You so much. =) 3月5日 Funny. xDThe Height Of The RidiculousBy Oliver Wendell Holmes I wrote some lines once on a time They were so queer, so very queer, I called my servant, and he came
He took the paper, and I watched, He read the next; the grin grew broad, The fourth; he broke into a roar; Ten days and nights, with sleepless eye 3月3日 ForgivenessThe door opened, and he motioned for her to come in. She strode in, indignant, angry, and hurt. Lifting her chin up in defiance, her eyes challenged him to say his piece. "Don't let it affect you. She's like that." She stared at him evenly, the steely resolve in her eyes belying that cracked, fragile heart of hers. A few moments passed in silence. He sighed. Then she spoke, coldly and calmly. "You don't expect me to forgive and forget, do you?" The accumulation of past hurts combined with the new, festering wound she was nursing within her welled up, choking her with emotion. She heard herself saying those words, all the while knowing full well what was expected of her. Not that she was going to betray what she felt. Not if she could help it. "Forgive her. It's the only thing you can do." His words fueled her rage. Struggling to contain her fury, she gritted her teeth. "Forgive her? Maybe if she crossed me once. Or twice. But all my life?" "Don't expect her to change. She won't. But if you don't get rid of that bitterness, it will eat into you. Let God deal with her in His own time and way," he said quietly. For a moment, his counsel soothed her burning irritation. She knew the right thing to do. The hardest part was doing it. But why? Why should she bend? "How do you forgive a person who doesn't even ask for forgiveness?" He looked at her, full of compassion for that young, breaking heart. He personally knew what she was going through. Her pain, so carefully concealed yet excruciatingly obvious, made his heart ache. He yearned to gather her in his arms and ease her pain, but she was no longer a little girl. No longer the little girl who would come crying to him after a scraped knee, to be comforted by daddy's magical hands and soothing words. He breathed a quick prayer for the right words to say. "Jesus did it. On the cross, He told God to forgive the very people who nailed Him to the cross. They didn't ask for forgiveness. Look to Him as your example if you want to know how to forgive people who don't think they need any forgiving." The tears pricking insistently at her tear glands finally made their way out. She knew he was right. Deep in her heart, she knew what she had to do. But it still hurt. As much as she didn't like to admit it, she was deeply hurt. "Why is it so hard to be a Christian?" He looked at her, and shook his head slowly, knowing that she didn't want an answer. Not right now. |
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