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December 31 Fireworks, anyone?I know this entry should be posted right before the clock strikes twelve midnight, but true to form, you can imagine my impatience. Anyway I don't think I'll be up that late. Who ever said New Year should be a cause of insomnia? I put my trust in the fact that life will turn out just fine one second after twelve midnight. No, I'm not holding a midnight party at my house, not me.
Anyway since it is the New Year, I decided to carry on with the millenium-old tradition, the New Year resolutions. U_u Blame my idle mind.
Ten all in all, let's see what I am set out to do in 2006, five years after the first decade of my life. Do I sound that old? oh nevermind.
To be able to.... #1 Study hard(er) #2 Set my priorities straight #3 Grow spiritually as well as physically (lol, taller, I hope) #4 Not be that affected by peer pressure #5 Increase my common sense. #6 Be a nicer person #7 Memorize a Chinese and BM essay each every month (resorting to desperate measures) #8 Forget about xia-soi-ing myself and just have fun #9 Celebrate my birthday by getting at least one best subject on that day. My birthday falls in themiddle of the semester exams. #10 Hold my head up high even if I don't ace for the PMR
Correction : #1 Study. I know the exact day I gave up studying harder. It's noted down on my birth cert.
Okay, now I've got all of them down in black and white. Any objections made can be done by contacting the author through comments. *cough* O ye people of little faith...........U_u
Oh yeah, and a Happy New Year to all!
P.s I'm living on the 5 minutes allowed to post this blog. Other than that I'm officially banned for another 2 days. December 27 Deeper Dimensions.Sometimes one feels one maybe invincible..but inside...life isn't so perfect after all. I found out this truth during my blues period (recently), and this song spoke to me. SUre, the artist is a guy, but jz put aside this difference and you'll get to c another part of me not so familiar with the world.
SOmetimes awards and praise don't mean much becoz ppl actually expect it of me. Where's all the point in all that? Looking back on the things I've done, i was trying to be someone....like that song goes, hehe.
Five for Fighting - Superman
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive I'm just out to find The better part of me I'm more than a bird...I'm more than a plane More than some pretty face beside a train It's not easy to be me Wish that I could cry Fall upon my knees Find a way to lie About a home I'll never see It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede Even Heroes have the right to dream It's not easy to be me Up, up and away...away from me It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight I'm not crazy...or anything... I can't stand to fly I'm not that naive Men weren't meant to ride With clouds between their knees I'm only a man in a silly red sheet Digging for kryptonite on this one way street Only a man in a funny red sheet Looking for special things inside of me It's not easy to be me So I'm like...still trying to find the notes for this song. Once i have the score sheet then I wud be able to play it on my piano...comforting myself whenever the blues STRike again..hehe. Any information would be appreciated. December 25 Christmas Stripes.Whoa...hohoho everyone, its Ker-Rist-merst Day ( so soon meh?)....I only got the Christmas Stripes last night. *Exhaling slowly aka sigh* I guess it didn't quite occur to me that it was Really christmas until really recently. So uh, what's up with the special christmas edition? Well, first of all....ARE christmas lunches really necessary? I mean, all the tension involved ( you can just imagine my family)...it's suPposed to be a time of good cheer and all but where is all that in a christmas lunch? Overwrought and frayed nerves aren't the best way to celebrate Christmas..but i guess it's okay for making others happy...others get to have free lunch! That's what its all about really, isn't it? Giving more than receiving, yeah. Seriously, this crisis is happening to families around the world everytime an important occasion turns up...the lunches and dinners and open houses... Christmas Happens in the heart, not in the circumstances around. With that attitude, i bet i can survive today. Anyway, whatever happened to my christmas Stripes? Has it turned into christmas Gripes? No, I won't let it..because to me, everyday is Christmas day! And if you're anything like Bryan, askin where his present is, i can tell you the answer. THe greatest present of all lies in the fact we're in the present! ( heh, well, if that's not good enuf...) We should celebrate Christmas more often. ( For those of you who say "yeah right" in response to that, this blog isn't the place for you) By the way, for those of you wondering what "christmas stripes" are.....it's just a newly coined term bringing the meaning of the christmas attitude. It's a gerrr-----ate day! December 23 23 Dec 2005Claimed at last! Claimed at last!
Okay so what the blazes am I talking about? Oh...that.....My report card Of course....I've finally claimed it jz..lemme check....half an hour ago? But what's the big deal, nth has changed since I last saw it on the second last week of school. Oh well. If only a big red E or D mysteriously appeared there..now that would be spectacular.
School is starting soon and I'm using my spare time ( which i have Lots of) to daydream about my first day in school next year. Should I bring all the form 3 textbooks? Ah..crap, NO. It's too heavy. What about my uniform? I don't have a nametag on it YET...oh well...I'll remain incognito to everyone. No harm done. And my set of exercise books.....I haven't bought them yet. Okay, so I'm far from prepared. But according to my calculations, the first day in school should be a harrowing experience for all teachers and 'school' would be total chaos. Like I said, try teaching in that sort of environment. *smirk*
I'm looking forward to it. December 22 To Whoever It May Concern.So I took a look at my previous entry and decided : Oh , it's kinda out of date now...And was rather cruel by the way. No regrets though, when I think about next year ( which is a mere 9 days away ). My turn. *sigh*
But I'm determined to survive, and come out of the battle in one whole sane/insane piece. While others might be changed by the course of events, I set down my own target : To be as natural and "me" as possible even while fighting for my life (and my face) in this whole new year of uncertainties. I'll go on helping as many people as I can to grasp new concepts and mathematical formats. I won't be deterred by the fact I may lose to those I try to help, because dwelling on that fact and letting it eat away at you is one of the things exams do to people.
I'll fight the system and go against the flow. No, I won't keep knowledge to myself and rather, have everyone's interest at heart.
To anyone out there reading this, help hold me accountable to whatever I jot down here. For this is my pledge.
Like anyone else would be interested in reading a blog entry of a 14 going on 15 year-old girl. December 21 Twas the Night Before Ree-zults~Just a little poem for those getting their ree-zults tommorow.....While I'm getting a life outta being annoying. Hehe. Enjoy, bon appetit, or you can retaliate if you like.
T-was the day before ree-zults~ (everyone went to bed early)
As the clock struck midnight Insomnia struck too...and...
Mum sat straight up in bed, As stressed-out illusions danced around in her head.
Dad fidgeted and twisted, tossed and turned, Ree-zults, that dreadful thing, made his stomach churn.
Siblings in the next room, plotted their attack. Insults and sarcasm, whether good or bad Ree-zults were had. *sigh.hehe*
And. The PMR candidate, sound asleep in his bed. The wisest of the lot, he ain't giving it no thought. Doomsday or not, just face what's had... And get on with life SPM's two years ahead!
P.S. And much more important you big dummy heads!
* dedicated to all my form 3 friends and aquaintances. May the ree-zults be with you. Thank you for giving me an outlet for mischief. hiak hiak. December 19 Stupified by my future class. ( can have two meanings, shocked or stupid Intensified )Feeling lousy ( starting yesterday), I decided to ask my sis to place a call to Amy. Perfectly normal procedures as my sis is also her friend. Little did i noe i was in for a shock. Check this out : Rene : Hello , is Amy in? ( i chuckled becoz she made the name Amy sound lk Enemy.) * Obviously i wasnt part of the conversation so i could only hear my sis's side.* Rene : Oh, May asked me to call you and tell you she wont b going dancing tonite bcoz she's sick. [ Short interval of silence, listening] Rene : Oh, okay, that's all. Bye. Eh, May, she wants to talk to you. *Me dragging myself to the phone, a pitifully sick creature.* Me : Hello? Amy : May, i've got sth to tell you. The name lists for nex yr hv come out n ur in 3 E. Me : Aw ( or was it Naw?), come on...* to myself i tot it was a rather bad joke.* Amy : No, true. Ur really in 3E. Me ( not panicked yet) : Huh? you mean nex yr there isnt any streaming? Amy : NO, I told you the class name changed. Me (attempting to salvage dignity and not getting her meaning) : So you mean, lk, E stands for another word? But y is the sch board so into changing names? Too eng arh? Amy : E stands for Excellent perhaps? haha...Din i tell you b4 that 3A and 3E were going to switch places? * Uh, no, i don recall* Come on, u actually tot u were goin to 3 E arh? *technically i am* Nex yr 3A is going to b 3E. Me : Wha?! Whose brilliant idea was THAT? I mean, i hate the letter E. True. And Amsterdam sounds much nicer than Edmonton. Amy : I dono, mayb the sch board doesnt want to create the illusion that A classes are the best. * funny logic* ( And after that we talked about new additions and subtractions for 3E ) I hung up feeling incredulous. Do you noe the letter "E" stands for Lemah in the report book? Adding the fact it makes us sound lk the loser class. The failed generation. Whatever. On the other hand, I'd lk to c my aunts' expression when i tell them the news. It's gonna b so cool telling ppl that i Aint in the A class... You noe, they always say...Always look on the bright side of life...ta dum, dum dum dum dum dum dum.... (note to reader: the conversation was multilingual with me speaking English and Amy speaking Chinese. That's the way we usually operate. So not all words are exactly what we said, but you get the idea.) December 17 My Say.Yesterday nite, my mind was idle in the process of trying to go to sleep. I finally gave up and let it wander. Recalling that ppl used to ask me ques, half of wic im not prepared to ans and usually my ans turned out half-baked *sigh* I wished that i cud go back and rephrase, but what's done is done. Whether i lk it o not.
Anyway my lack of sleep was probably caffeine-induced, so I'm possibly gonna stay up for longer than i'd lk to.
(reminder to self: NO coffee or tea at least 5 hours b4 bedtime.)
So to prevent future occurences, i decided to predict questions and prepare answers. U noe, lk the PMR spotting?
Turns out the first thing that comes to mind is " What if i ppl ask me what is my source of JOy?"
Tough.But i enjoy a good challenge and its definately MOre interesting than counting a bunch of sheep. Hehe.
I'd have to say " the clouds at sunrise". I've owes loved sunrise-hued clouds bcoz of the diff colours and diff designs sported each new day. U noe what? I've NEVER seen two exact same designs (or colours for that fact)twice in my lifetime. Every morning during the sch yr, a few minutes wud b spent admiring those timelessly fashioned clouds. Sometimes, I'd even get a glimpse of the classic " cloud with a silver lining". A romantic, you may say. I donoe, all i noe is nature is too beautiful to take in all at once and i just enjoy drowning in it. N i'm not even saying this out of character.
And people around me too, especially best friends.As we walk together tru life ( both literally and figuratively), somehow one gets the feeling of the special bond that exists, dependancy on the other and vice versa. THe memories created are those i wudnt trade for the world. Life wont b that much fun without them.
FOr once im not gonna talk about Lara.
Mayb its purely genetical reasons. Who noes? U c, I was borned into a family where everyone is a Joker. No queens, no kings, no aces (hehe)..but my tendency to go off topic is flaring up again.
No, I'm sure there's more to that. JOy has to come frm within. Let me complete the previous statements.
CLouds leave me awe-struck that The Great Designer delights in beauty so much. I'm sure that He designs the hues every new morning juz for our pleasure.
What's life without best friends? The One Above, so near and yet so far, is one of mine.
Add the fact He personally created each DNA strain of my being into a wonderful family, knowing every part of me even better than i noe myself b4 i was even born. I feel loved and secure in that knowledge.
Take away everything around me, strip me to the very essence of my soul, my core, and i hope you still find that everlasting Joy revolving around my Saviour. For I'm Loved. And i love Him.
Yes, that would be my answer. That's such a reason to live. CHeers! December 15 My dedications in the event i do NOt survive the holiday. Or Form 3.It's the 15th oredi and this might jz be the last chapter of my blog for the hol. Well, last chapter doesnt necessarily mean last entry, rite? Anyway, the reason im waxing eloquent (yea, all that crap above) is bcoz the hols are coming to an end...so the life as it is this very second is about to change drastically once i get to Form 3. Whatever. N I jz sit around wasting my time..U_U...Nvm. And iv figured out that i ought 3 thank many ppl hu were viciously supportive in maintaining my sanity and insanity this whole hol. So jz bear with my opening lines for the stuff is gonna b coming out soon. (more lk spilling out) For starters, id lk to thk God for giving me a closer relationship with Him. Mayb the hol was his way to slow down stuff for me to focus on Him instead of placing Him secondary to my own business ( or BuSYness). All Glory and Honour to Him and Him alone! Second but not least ( lemme check to make sure my parents arent here), id have to say I LOVE YOU to my parents.Part of the reason i'm not dead frm boredom is or lack of entertaintment is bcoz the electricity and internet bills were paid. And the fact that we Do NOT have a maid. YOu noe, the Internet costs. ANd the household chores...its saving me frm total time massacre-ing. I actually sorta look forward to chores nowadays....Bsides that i got to go to the Library thrice ( including today)! Yeah! *punches fist in air* All that chauffering around for free...my life is a bed of roses......wait..not exactly...its a bed of books. hehe. ( Do not tell my parents OR else) Now, the suspense is building..n u guys probably wanna noe hu the Emmys go to huh? hiak hiak....* clearing throat* My dedications to those friends and aquaintances who made my holiday memorable (enuf) and that's oni bcoz i din get to travel anywhr this hol (smirking). - To Amy, when crazy meets crazy enuf, sparks ignite, dreams (nitemares even) come true, insanity bcomes reality and movies get watched, thks buddy! Look forward to teasing and playing more pranks together on other ppl...evil hoh? - To Teck Ang, man, THANK YOU for being my punching bag.( note to reader : Punching bag=a place to let loose and release stress) I'm lk..majorly grateful coz u let me rant n ramble on n on n act as crazy as i lk. YOu noe what? u came jz in a nick of time last nite when i needed to let my hair down ( jz figuratively, i don even have long enuf hair). And of coz, the fact you could handle me at my worst is simply amazing. Andy and Eddie could handle me pretty well too, jz that One is a confirmed trivia freak and the other doesnt come to Youth as often as i wud want him to. - To Ing Thian, LOVE YA bro ( in Christ)! thk u for caring for me when i was down. You're simply so understanding that i find it hard to blive you hvnt scored a doable date YEt. Oh well, great minds thk alike rite? hehe... -Oh yeah, to two new aquaintances, Bryan and Kong Min ( the two cute cute kids), thks for improving my English. I hardly get a chance to practice my vocab and u two were an awesome outlet. hehe.. and quite up to standard too..my commends. Basically, thks for being able to speak English. lol. - To Sonia, I leave you my most prized possession, my sarcasm. Hey wait a sec..i forgot that this wasnt a reading of my will. Son, to b honest with you, THKS for being a GREat sparring opponent. Keep up the good work and may the best man( or woman) win! ( of coz its a proven fact that i will (smirk smirk)) - To Kelvin, thks for a chance to b able to blackmail som1 for once. HEHE. And of coz, for letting me prove that my intuition isnt as BAD as i tot it wud b. Hehe... - To my Dog, I love u u lil morphy offie. Keep my blood pressure low and i'll keep giving u ur cholesterol-filled liver. Muackss. - To my sis, I jz want u to watch ur time limit okay? Other ppl wanna use the com too. But thks for not telling on me as often as i shud b told on. - To another person hu threatend to make me endure the twilight zone shud i rite anything about him here, thks for giving me a place to hone my arguing, sparring and quarrelling skills. Oh well, i guess this is it. I don thk i have all the space in the world to rite about EVERYONE..so some ppl get left out naturally. But this few are those hu impacted my hol with a spice of humour, interesting-ness and insanity (or sanity, u choose). Anyway, Thks! ;P
December 13 The Dishwasher Crisis ( part 2 of "Am I for Real?")So far, so good. I've managed to thwart my family's attempt at buying a dishwasher till now.
But....my mum came up with another solution. Almost literally. She bought another brand of dishwashing..."stuff". Okay, I'm fine with that. At least, I was fine with that until i realized the effects were the same. I , Yes, MUI, still had to do full-time dishwashing. ANd this so-called solution was supposed to have the effect of allowing my bro to help me do that chore. And anyone who cares to do it, for that matter.
AND THE DISHWASHING "STUFF" was SO LOUSY! I mean, one used to using Sunlight detergent would probably say so..(im REAL spoilt huh?) But back to the topic, the Axion stuff...it can't even clean the oil properly.
Imagine my surprise when i was rinsing the plates yesterday. My hands were OILY! After the soaping somemore.
Well, one can't get the best of everything and i thk i deserved it because i objected to a dishwasher rather strongly.
But...but...( protests sounding fainter and fainter) December 09 Am I for REal?Wha?! You want to get a DiSHWasHer?! I'm Totally opposed to that idea.
Hey, wait.. Am I for REal? I mean, if we don get one, i'll be stuck washing the dishes forever. You c, my whole family has a sort of allergic reaction or whatever to dishwashing liquid. SO..that implies im gonna b a full-time lean mean dishwashing machine. Lol. And nex yr im having my PMr, my bro his SPm, And my sis her UPSR. WHoa...
Mayb the sense of responsibility is sorta enjoyable in a way. I mean, You can get ATTACHed to ur chore. Because its YOURs truly, NO one else can do it better than you can. ( im not saying im the best dishwasher but im certainly the most immune one) Well, my cuzzy did say once that when he was little, he Nvr let anyone near his clothes to iron them for him. He only trusted HIMSElf....same scenario here...haha....
Oh, mayb im jz weird...now that's a more reasonable explanation.
OR.............i just cant take the fact that a machine is gonna be able to replace me in dishwashing area....u noe how it is...if you're the oNly person in the family hu can wash the plates, well...sooner or later ur gonna call in sick....and THEN those ppl u call ur family members jz gotta appreciate the stuff u Do for them. SO it turns out my reasoning is for purely selfish reasons. OH well~
But i do enjoy dishwashing...well.. Sometimes.
Mayb its not gonna b so bad.
;p December 06 Im so GOld~Gold's not really my FAv colour, but check out why i chose it..lol~there's jz so many to choose frm..mind posting a comment to tell me what colour U are?
> Silver. (Single and loving it) > > Red. (Single and Looking) > > Pink. (Single and looking but talking to > someone) > > Baby pink. (Single and loving it but talking to > someone) > > Gold. (Single and not so much loving it..and not > really looking either..just waiting..I guess) > > Yellow. (Single and liking someone, but don't > know if they like you back) > > Green. (Taken and Dedicated) > > Orange. (Taken but not a very steady > relationship) > > Black. (Taken and ready to break-up) > > Purple. (It's complicated) > > Blue. (Single, but not looking because you love > someone) > > White. (Single, but like someone very much and > are waiting for him/her) > > Brown. (taken and very much in love with him/ > her) > > Maroon. (just pimpin' all them hoes) > > Crimson. (Broken hearted) > > Magenta. (Like him/her but know you can never > have them) > > Baby blue. ( Taken and confused and dont > know what to do ) > > Rainbow - (Fat and ugly and no one likes you) > > Hot pink- (falling for someone, but dont wish > to, becoz u dont want to get hurt December 03 Wha? What dAte is it Today?!WhOops..it's December oredi! N i do NOt have to mention the fact im not even started on my studies huh?(Almost, i started yesterday)
Well...habits are hard to break and i nvr studied in the hols....its that obvious.But next year it's the PMR. Tho i sound more worried than i really am. LOl..but i learnt my lesson frm the results i got in the yr end exam....not taking a look at the form 1 syllabus can really hurt ur position. OH n the Form 1 HIstory reli freaked me out bcoz i realized i don rmember a single fact ( that's exaggerating but nvm)!
So now im resuming my failed efforts at studying wic i attempted earlier this hol. I cant guarantee i'll succeed..but the method to spur me on...is internet usage. I mean, if i don study, my bro will allow me the privilege of chatting. Pretty simple and effective aye? N i have oni one hour per day. Self control, u noe? lol...( i cant blive im laughing in the face of groundation but i am)
I don reli mind coz i hv library books surrounding me on all sides...n if u compare textbooks to storybooks n thrillers n suspense-filled reading material, u'd find it surprisingly dull. TRU! try it urself if you dont blive me. U_u.
Anyway, I'd better get back to Science form 1 chapter 3..Matter..becoz its wat matters, isnt it?
Yea RIGHT.
I NOE it's oni PMR....but somhow i gotta study to save face. *so kiasu for what?
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