Hm.. So back to groundation huh. Hey but i thk................i thk mayb groundation periods are good for me. I mean, im somehow startng to thk that On9ing is a waste of time. Other than the so-called "extending my friends network", its jz....A waste of time!

 

Actually, the "extending friends network" excuse isnt really valid too. I value Real friendships..those you can share ur pains n ur joys with.. those u can HAVE real conversations with..in chatting, most ppl talk trash. I don mince my words here, but then again, i hardly do ( ppl do tell it to my face u noe). TEll me, how many ppl u meet on9 will dare to say " hi" to u in real life? SAy the both of you meet in sch. It'll probably be jz a cold shoulder...pretending uv nvr met b4, n take my word on this.. its gonna b awkward. I challenge ALL of you hu r  in my contact list to say "hi" when we bump into each other in sch..but i guess no one is up to that challenge.

 

N the first thing that hit me about chatting when i was introduced to it...came back to haunt me recently. Its the fact that "haha" n "lol" can b typed without any emotion on the persons part. Lk a grim-faced person can jz as easily say "haha"...n u noe that's so tru. The opposite often brings about the same results...making a sharp response sound neutral..its the fakeness of evrything that gets to me somtimes...........but most importantly, it can make a remark made in good humor mistaken for somting insulting.

 

Now...im saying this in defense..bcoz my words, my remarks can sound quite hard n sharp at times..when in real life if ur talkin to me n looking at my face, ud actually noe im kidding 90% of the time...bcoz when im direct...its usually done unintentionally and that's y somtimes i hurt ppl unconsciously.

 

What's more...its gonna b worse when im chatting.

Yesterday night was probably the worse night in my life.....man...if bad news is to be deliverd...plz! NOT at night!

 

Sleepless me kept on tossin n turning because of the news...n i was slowly cracking under pressure....on the verge of tears...ppl noe me as a strong person..mentally of course...but im human, i break i crack i shatter too...n i didnt have the courage to face facts...i kept hoping n hoping............but only morning could drive all doubts frm my mind. The nex day. I was planning every single question i could use in the interrogation......not a surprise i cudnt sleep aye?

 

Isnt it normal for a 14-year-old girl to hv to go tru lotsa stuff?  Especially all the humiliation..or so i tot...

 

Morning brought about a fresh bout of doubts(hmm, nice tongue twister i hv there). But i decided to on9 at nite. Not in the morning. SO i waited another eleven hours........................another LONG eleven hours before any doubts were erased frm my mind...........WHOAH!    Do you noe what its lk to hv a nerve-wrackin day n find out that ur hopes finally triumph over the odds?!    felt lk a huge burden was lifted off my heart.

 

Im not losing any sleep tonite. haha....

Today is my last day at TMC and iv been jz waiting for today to start bloggin again. 

HEy, hu lks lil kids? Can i c a show of hands? Haha, nvm....after a week of entertainin the young ones, i finally realised a few facts of life. I'll give u 3  :

 

i)  Kids...will be kids

ii)  They can reach decibles of incredible heights

n the last one

iii) Kids...will BE kids.

 

Well, anyway, i did learn a few recipes..so i shudnt b complaining RITE?  lk the yummy pizza...n so simple to make TOO!

Of COURSE, helpers for the snack centre r entitled to as many helpings as they want..provided they dont get sick..but anyway that's their own business.

Hey, did anyone ever mention how attached u can somtimes get to a KID? Hai~ i nver ever ever tot i wud fall into that trap.........i mean, im not lk most ppl hu says " ooohh..dat kid is SO cute" evrytime a lil toddler passes by. Haha, there was this one incredibly popular eurasian kid hu got himself a fan club................funny how the chemical reaction works huh?  ( i wasnt any part of the club, mind u)

 

But i DID get attached to one girl there...................only one.....but welllllllll.....u noe....nvm, i hope i'll meet her again in the near future.

 

Somtimes its better not to get too attached, especially if u noe ur not gonna stay long. A week. That's an awful short time.......

Im gonna get myself a heart transplant.

Wow..I even managed to "influence" som1 else to try out the blog here...nice~

 

Well...even so...im running outta things to say. Besides the fact that next week im gonna b spendin my time with lotsa lil kids....haha...at least a break frm the monotonous routine ( im so thankful i was roped in). Well..but that's tommorow...wat bout today?

 

My miss call wasnt replied..to my disappointment. I had hoPed to chat with one of my best frens........but it seems im all alone here. Haha..not exactly, my dog is making lickin my leg her full time occuPation. Sweet huh?

 

OH yeah..now my laptop's P key is a bit sot....so im havin problems with it unless i hammer it down with gusto. It's okay really, coz bsides that to keep me occuPied, nth else is.

 

Youth grup is a saving grace, btw. Im happy to hv a place where all tension is released..but the thing is ..its oni once in a week. WOrse stil, the "once" was yesterday. GOtta learn to live without it for another week.

 

Am i soundin lk a martyr?   YIkes!

Hmm...nice title huh? lolx...so true...

I actually do. Believe it or not. [lafin my head off now, wait a sec, i'll continue what im gonna say]

C, this morning i had omos nth to do...and my dog was lookin especially cute. Btw, i had my bro's Mp3 on at that time, so i jz got caught up in the mood~ My dog had to suffer....hiak hiak.

Anyway, she's the one dats keepin me sane, bcoz im goin nuts frm doin nth..but..hehe...i jz discovered a new recreational activity!!

But, guys, i thk this is gonna get a lot of groans frm anyone. It's sewing. Well..at least attempted sewing. Hey Amy, good thing we learned to sew huh? IN ERT....okay, lets forget the past. I reli don dare to c how the tcher graded my "masterpiece".

Oh yeah...im also thkin of goin bowlin! But ah~ its nicer to go with frens rite? hmm....the thing is.....frens are so hard to come by. yEah rite..jkjk. But my frens, its either no transport, or ..they arent my frens. Just aquaintances. (So that means, if i ask them out, we'd lk..have nth to talk about.)

What about swimmin? haha...id better not get so restless...but i was born restless...any cure for that? Anyway, nex week the fun's gonna start..(patience, may, patience~)

SO...in the meantime, lemme get back to my sewing.

Oh wait....floffy? Listen to ur heart...when he's callin for you...listen to ur heart...lalala...